“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
Time heals all wounds.
Only time will tell.
We’re obsessed with time. We’re obsessed with trying to stop it, wasting it and preserving it. However, it’s one of the few things we’re not really in control of.
When we’re hurting we’re constantly reminded that ‘time’ will be our friend. This illusion of time will save us, make us feel better, and make things clearer. It’s almost as if we’re measuring time as distance and when we get to the end of the road we’ll be fine. But how to we know we’re on the right road, how do we know whether the road will be bumpy or smooth, how do we know we’re following the right signs?
How do we know that time is healing?
There’s a few things that will happen when you’ll know that you’re healing.
- The moment you get your appetite back.
You’ll get a craving and it’ll feel like you can taste again. All of a sudden you’re not just eating to survive but you’re hungry for taste. Its like tasting something sweet, sour, or savory for the first time, it’ll fill you with joy as if all your senses are awakened.
- The moment you notice a break in the clouds.
The endless mind loop will stop, even for a short moment. When it does you might not even notice it until after. You’ll feel light and not drained of energy. It might be something routine such as ‘what is there for breakfast.’ Whatever the thought will be you’ll notice the break in the clouds, and slowly that break will get longer, maybe an hour, a day or even a weekend.
- The moment you look in the mirror and you recognise yourself again.You look and feel like you. It’s like you’ve come back, come back home.
- The moment you make plans that you’re excited for.
Something will happen whether its a return of your favourite TV show, a concert or a dinner with friends. Whatever it is, no matter how small or large, the excitement will ignite from within and you’ll realise your not scared anymore but looking forward to it.
Whether you feel like you are or not, everyday you are healing. The moments listed above are little reminders of how well you are doing. When you notice them you’ll be able to enjoy the moment, and other moments which follow. It takes a lot of little steps to walk a great distance, but the road will always lead you back home, to you.
And when you get there, you’ll realise how far you’ve come.